Did I mention that I suspect I am suffering from 被遗忘妄想症?

我背书时记忆力不是很好
认识的人我倒是能记得住
我怕我记得的人不记得我
我怕我认得的人不认得我
我怕我在乎的人不在乎我
我怕我喜欢的人不喜欢我

Came across the below topic several times recently:
在路上遇到似熟不熟的acquaintance, 你会主动打招呼，还是假装没看见［总不可能摆明不理他吧］？

I'll look down, look left/right [whichever side the person is NOT on], look at my handphone and act busy.
Disclaimer: When I look left/right or at my handphone, it might not imply that I'm deliberately ignoring you.
总之，就是装作没看见，因为不能装作不认识。
可是如果真的不算认识，我真的会装作不认识。

It's not that I mean to be rude or anything, it's just...a combination of various reasons.
1) It's really hard to catch the right moment to say Hi! You say it too fast, the person might not have noticed your presence and might not hear you. You don't say it fast enough and stare for a moment too long, it gets far too awkward. How??
2) I have no faith in people to remember who I am, not cuz I'm hopelessly cynical, but cuz past experiences have made me hopeless. People might think I look familiar but just cannot remember exactly where I'm from, or simply don't remember that I once appeared in their life. I'd rather not know.
Then again, if you say Hi to me first, I'll definitely enthusiastically say Hi too!

Back to the topic of 被遗忘妄想症, I am really afraid of being forgotten, especially by people whom I made an effort to remember. Heck I'm really insecure. Call the security for me please.

陌生人－－－蔡健雅

一朵云能载多少思念的寄托
再忽然相遇街头
当我们擦身而过
那短短一秒钟
都明白 什么都变了
一转身谁能把感慨抛在脑后
在事过境迁以后
这段情就算曾经 刻骨且铭心过
过去了 又改变什么
地球它又 公转了几周了
(浓情爱恋 都已陌生了)
我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只能活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至原谅你的残酷理由
当我了解不爱了
连回忆 都是负荷
我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只能活在记忆里头
我不恨你了
甚至感谢这样不期而遇
当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人了
我已是 陌生人了

。尋找中@18:08