6 movie tickets for "No Restriction" movies - valid until 31 Aug (Mon)
$10 KBox cash vouchers - valid until 31 Aug (Mon)
$20 Fish&Co. cash vouchers - valid until 1 Sep
$50 Waraku/Pasta de Waraku cash vouchers - valid until 21 Sep
$20 Thai Express cash vouchers - valid until 31 Dec
$50 汤点王 cash vouchers - valid until 31 Dec
$50 Shokudo cash vouchers - valid until 31 Dec

。尋找中@20:09

We went offstone for Vol 16 Issue 2 at 10.02pm yesterday.
This is the earliest ever for our seven issues thus far.

People ask us how we can offstone so early.
We are not particularly fast at layout.
We just start work earlier.
Sometimes this just isn't possible for the other sections, because of the number of stories they have, because of the response they get from their writers, because of the quality of their writers, because of the QC process they have to go through.

As Soon Kiat pointed out yesterday, both of us did not have to write anything for this issue.
Thank you, writers.
Some really can make us vomit blood, but who am I to complain? I've made people vomit gallons of blood before. Dear people, please follow the instructions given, learn from mistakes. I think I probably can write ok most of the time, but when it comes to editing, I totally have so much more to improve on. We all need time, I guess. We will never be perfect, but we all have to strive towards perfection while understanding that this is a never-ending journey.

The two sections in this post are so incoherent. Tsk tsk news cannot be like that...

。尋找中@19:29

I can't remember when's the last time I did a proper blog post. It doesn't matter anyway, cuz I don't think anyone is reading. My tag board is uber dead. Either nobody's reading or my posts are really too boring. Actually I think it's the latter. Anyway...

Dr D. was talking about the personality profile of authoritarians when teaching Marxism during Communication History and Theories lecture, and I realized I fit that description almost perfectly - weak, low inner strength, desire for order, prejudiced, lead or be led (by a strong leader).

Weak, low inner strength... Regardless of how I may appear to be, I am weak inside - weak as in cowardly, weak as in unstable. I am afraid to offend, and as a result, afraid to speak, afraid to even think. I waver easily, unable to decide what to do, often having to depend on others to make the decision or influence me in my decision.

Desire for order... I used to be super neat. I'm not as neat now. Instead of keeping my physical possessions in order, I am far more concerned in order of situation. If I have a plan, I want things to go exactly as I have planned. One disruption will make me very pissed off.

Prejudiced... I guess everyone is prejudiced. Am I particularly prejudiced? I can be judgmental but I rarely express that. I am especially easily influenced by other people's prejudice as well.

Lead or be led... An authoritarian need not always be in control, says Dr D.; it's quite extreme. When I am in power, I want total control and I want people to follow exactly what I tell them to do. When I am not in power, I want my leader to control me and give me orders, and I will follow them as the best I can.

独裁主义 is nothing good. I cannot help it if my personality happens to match.

。尋找中@18:40

我的身体开始叛逆了。
以前，她都很懂得看时机。
例如考试的时候，正当大家都病倒了，我都不会生病；考完试的隔一天，马上倒。
经典例子：骨痛热症那一次。
现在，她好死不死，就选在production开始前出现故障。
又是伤风，又是喉咙痛。
最糟糕的就是，production的时候，编辑团队一共好几十个人都跟我一起困在chron room，实在希望不会把病菌传染给他们。

身体不舒服，不想那么早出门。
8：15的那趟车，就算了吧。

。尋找中@07:49

Mobile phone companies like to give their phones fanciful description, which often can be applied to another phone...

Nokia N95: 5 Megapixel Camera Phone with GPS and Music Player
Nokia N81: Nseries Multimedia Slide Phone with Music and Games
Nokia 8800 Arte: Glass and Metal Slide Phone with Light Sensors
Nokia 8800 Sapphire Arte: Leather Cover Slide Phone with OLED GVCA Display

。尋找中@00:57

可爱的小朋友
我们的缘分只有那么一点
可惜，我还没真正认识你

Haha
Why does this post sound so wrong???
Reminds me of my 雨中送别 essay－先是像分手，后是像自杀，其实是迈向未来的自己与现在的自己告别...
That must be the best essay I ever wrote, and it was based on 意识流...
Hahaha

Finally Friday!

。尋找中@19:42

結果還是鐵齒不下去
除了政大，還申請了交大
但是如果政大失敗，交大成功，我應該也不會接受
申請，只是避免日後後悔沒為自己留後路

不可能，也要堅持下去

。尋找中@22:31

台灣人民遇上風災，家破人亡，就連祖墳都被毀了。
但他們不怪老天爺，因為這是天災。
傷害這麼重，他們都不怨天尤人。
我們還能怪誰？

。尋找中@21:00

繁體字真的很有意思。

運。
船載著軍。

軍，就是我們自己。
善用載著自己的船，運才能載著軍前進。

船要是沉了，包圍軍的只有水。

水伴著軍。
渾。

渾渾噩噩，停滯不前。

...from《溏心風暴》

。尋找中@23:03

一直以来，都觉得自己做的不够多，做的不够好。于是，我想要做的更多，以弥补做的不够好的。但是，做的多，就能弥补做的不够好的吗？还是，做这么多事，但是，什么也做不好，又有什么意义？我到底在干什么？

。尋找中@22:47

The world is a playground.

There's a see-saw. When nobody's on it, well, it does look stable, but it's lop-sided. When you get on it, you get to turn it your way. When another person gets on it, the direction changes again. We all are trying to get the power on our side.

There's a swing. You can get yourself high, but you can only get higher with the help of a friend pushing you higher. You enjoy the view up there, the thrill, the top-of-the-world feeling. Don't forget the person who's staying down on the ground, pushing you up. Don't kick the person on your way down.

I never liked see-saw; it's never in total balance nor do we want it to be. I never liked swings; it's not in our control and it gets us too far out. Never liked playgrounds; there's no fun in playing when u might get hurt. But then, it's a part of growing up.

Oh yeah, the playground downstairs got torn down. Rebuilding, I think. Wonder how it will turn out.

I used to think I had nothing. I did nothing. I felt nothing.
I think I'm doing something. I have something. I think I'm doing too much. I think I'm doing too little. I feel confusion.

。尋找中@22:37

我想要公私分明，把共事者与朋友的身份划分清楚。
有些人，作朋友还可以，但一起做事实在是buay tahan。
可是，如果因为工作的关系坏了对朋友的印象，好像不太公平。
但是，我要怎么知道这些人是工作态度有问题，还是人格有问题呢？
有些人...

但或许，我也是这样。

。尋找中@22:27

一面之緣比半生不熟讓我更安心。
當我遇見只碰過一次面的陌生人，總有一種一見如故的感覺，僅因為那一面之緣。
尷尬是有一點，但是也會覺得親切。
尤其是陌生人，我更能毫無顧忌地和他們交談。
或許是因為，我們可能再也不會見面，說甚麼、做甚麼都沒有後遺症。
反觀之，半生不熟的朋友(?)更讓我感到不安。
在網路上，我幾乎可以輿任何人攀談；到了現實生活中，我反倒覺得尷尬至極。
就像開學第一天，看到學弟學妹們時，我明明就還挺興奮，想要見到大家的。
見到他們時，我卻莫名其妙地完全忽視他們的存在。
非常尷尬，真的。
就是不知道要怎麼和他們打招呼。
大家，看到我請跟我打招呼，因為除非我當時很high，我應該不會主動和你打招呼。

所以嘛，我喜歡和陌生人裝熟，卻和半熟人裝陌生。
和陌生人裝熟，比和半熟人容易。
裝熟，你不知道對方還記不記得你。
陌生人，就沒有這個困擾。
很好，不是嗎？

。尋找中@00:00

AY09/10 Semester 1

Part 1: 10 Aug-27 Sep
Recess: 28 Sep-2 Oct
Part 2: 3 Oct-8 Dec (30 Nov)
Exams: 25 Nov-30 Nov

COM206: Visual Literacy And Communication
Lecture@Wed 1500-1700
Tutorial@Fri 1100-1300 (T3)
Exams@30 Nov 0900-1100

COM207: Communication History And Theories
Lecture@Tue 1100-1300
Lecture@Thu 0900-1100
Exams@25 Nov 0900-1100
**First Paper!

COM221: News Reporting And Writing
Lecture@Wed 1200-1330
Tutorial@Wed 0900-1130 (T4)
Exams@30 Nov 1300-1500
**Last Paper!

COM223: Publication Design
Lecture@Tue 1400-1600
Tutorial@Tue 1600-1800
Exams@25 Nov 1300-1500

CO261A: Newspaper Practicum
News Conference-Post Mortem-Production

EE8086: Astronomy - Stars, Galaxies And Cosmology
Lecture@Thu 1330-1630
Exams@26 Nov 1700-1900

。尋找中@22:42

大家都知道自己不可能是世界第一
但是，大家就是不甘心被比下去
天空那么大，我一定要找出属于自己的一片天

我曾经开过这样一个玩笑：
小学，我的目标是前三名——不难
中学，我的目标是前三十名——勉强
高中，我的目标连前三百名都不是，只想追回成绩单上的A
大学，我发现grades只是一种指标

它显示出你在这门学科的表现
它不代表你有多少能力，多少潜力
它也不代表你以后会有多好的发展

大学第一年，我的成绩还过得去，但是却不算理想
但至少多数时候，我写出来的新闻都还ok
当然，很多人写得比我好
这点我不否认，也虚心受教
有些人却只会说，不会做
其实，也不是不会做，因为考试成绩还不错
可是写出来的东西却叫人吐血
我也不是什么咖，可以评论人家写得怎样
我自认不是一个很尖锐的读者
所以如果我都看得出有问题，那应该真的是有问题了

I'm not saying I deserve to do better
I have much room for improvement anyway
But I think grades do not say much about what I can do

我又在发牢骚了

。尋找中@18:33

Current wishlist:

Change of hairstyle
Change of specs
Pumps
Blazer/Vest
Three-quarters
Samsung Preston
Sony Ericsson W705
Apple earpiece
Adobe CS4
《阿密特》
《三面夏娃》
《特务J》
Sephora Atomic Volume Mascara
Majolica Majorca Lash Beautifying Mascara

What a random post...

。尋找中@18:33

When you have nothing, you are pleased by every little thing.
When you have something, you won't be satisfied until you have everything.

I saw my eye candy today!
I happened to leave for school at the same time I usually leave for work, so I thought I might see him. Even though I expected so, it was a nice surprise to see him since I thought I'll never see him once I end work. I was standing on the bus where he usually stands. When the bus cleared a little, I moved in, and suddenly, he was right there in front of me, standing where he usually does. He was within one metre from me for the next two stops.
When we alighted from the bus, we were both headed for the MRT station. He walked really quickly, but haha he missed the train and we caught the same train. When I reached the platform, he was standing at the door nearest to the escalator. As the train arrived the moment I stepped of the escalator, so I went straight to that particular door. He was two persons away from me for the next few stops.
I alighted at Raffles Place to transfer to the green line. He disappeared. I guessed he works at Raffles Place area.
This little encounter early in the morning before 9am started the day off well and made my day. Such little coincidences can make me this happy, because I 只要看你一眼、一瞬间，哪怕是最后画面... Sorry, post-K Box syndrome... But ya, all I want is to see him.

However, say, you are attached.
You will want to be with that person every single moment, from what I observe of couples all around.
Either you want that person there with you in person, or you have that person as your HP wallpaper, or connected through SMS/MSN/FB etc.
There's no surprise in seeing him. No particular happiness in being with him.
You only feel unhappy if he's suddenly not around for a day without advance notice.

Anyway, the day started off well. When I got to school, Soon Kiat finished production for the last page and went offstone! Haha and I went back to school but not do anything. After everything was done, I stayed in school to finish up my Beng Thin page, and I was so happy I managed to fill the page up by around 1pm; I think the content is quite interesting also. After that, I went to meet Kia Mian, Sie Yen, Xi Hui and Simin for K Box!

Sounds good?

We wanted to go K Box at Jurong SAFRA, but it was fully booked, so we went to Suntec City instead. I finished my Beng Thin page, but I still had my celebrity page! I got hold of ML in the morning and he agreed to be interviewed. He said he will call at 6plus, if not I can call him. I waited until the end of 6pm to call him, but there was no answer. I think he was off for recording. I haven't been able to get hold of him since then. I cannot fill the page with him alone either, and my boss wanted YL too. I SMS-ed her and called her, only to realize that the number is not in use. I got her manager's number from my SM colleague, but she didn't reply me until the afternoon, and told me that someone else is in charge of YL now.

Sounds bad?

Thank goodness, she gave me the contact for YL's "real" manager and the latter replied me in the evening that we can do the interview tomorrow, at whatever time YL calls me. At least we got an interview.

What a roller coaster ride I had... Nightmare whenever I check my seowk89@gmail.com...

Pray for a reply from ML and for YL to call me tomorrow as mentioned~

。尋找中@21:51

Good news to Audrey and Fon Ping!
This post is in English, cuz I'm lazy.

I used to condemn people for over-committing, doing a lot but screwing up more.
I'm doing just that now.
I'm trying so hard, trying too hard to do everything.
Everything is just not turning out right.
My time management is a total failure.
I'm a total mess now.
I think I need some time to re-orientate.
But I cannot find any free slot to do that.
I stay in a mess, and get messier.
Gahhh...

。尋找中@00:08

1）勇于踩下第一步，随后乘胜追击

之前一直学不会，是因为不敢让双脚离地。昨天，在大家的教导下，我终于成功将双脚踩上踏板。第一步往往是最困难的。即使踩得上去，如果不使足劲，后劲也不足，就无法前进。唯有用力踩下第一步，再用另一只脚赶上节奏，才能向前。

2）克服障碍，而非却步

我基本上学会基本的骑车技术，最大的问题就是，一看到其他骑士或行人，我就会立刻猛踩刹车。之后，我又得煞费心思地再起步。其实，如果其他骑士或行人迎面而来，我应该学会闪开，继续向前。如果一碰到障碍就止步，重新出发就更困难了。

3）习惯依赖别人，很难独立

之前尝试学骑脚车时，朋友们都会在前面或后面扶着我，帮助我保持平衡。但是，他们一放手，我就会害怕，停下来。这次，没有人从旁扶着，只能靠自己取得平衡，然后又失去平衡，慢慢保持平衡，果然学得比较顺利。有人从旁指导固然好，但是我们不能依赖。

4）对初学者多多体谅、礼让

我在小步道学习骑车时最大的困难就是行人。虽然一部分是因为我见人就闪，但主要是因为即使我明显就是再学骑车，根本无法平衡，他们就是要走在我的车前面，阻挡着我向前。你往旁边走不行吗？为什么就死硬要挡在我面前？
很多时候，我们在生活上遇到初学者，或许都会觉得他们是我们前进的阻碍。我对那些路人而言，或许就是阻碍，他们也没有要让路的意思。但是，对初学者而言，路人确实他们突破零的一大障碍。有时候，我们或许会想：不会就不会嘛，干吗来挡路啊。但是，如果他们不突破零，他们只会囤积在起点，造成更大的障碍。

－－－

刚才从大巴窑中心搭巴士回家时，有位年迈的老先生搀扶着另一位更年长的老先生上车。可想而知，是需要点时间。突然，有名中年男子快步走上前。我还以为他是要上前去帮忙。结果，原来他是等不及要上车。

。尋找中@13:43

我想我还是习惯这里。
Wordpress的形式不太适合我。
新部落格还是会保留，但是可能要延迟开张了。

长达三个月的实习终于结束了。
老实说，这次的实习应该比之前的有趣多了，但是我还是喜欢“旧东家”。（其实总部都是一样的，但是感觉还是有差。）
或许是因为之前在那里呆了五个月，但是在这里也莫名其妙呆了三个月。
或许是因为在那里的工作比较稳定，但是在这里的工作更多样化——新闻采访、服装搭配、美食专题、文化专题、艺人采访、部长采访，都做过了。
奇怪的是，我再怎么埋怨，我还是一再延长我的实习期。从7月3日，到7月31日，到长期freelance，到SM周末part-time，我真的是想做死自己吗？
我不缺钱（但也不会嫌钱多）。我不缺portfolio（反正毕业后不回去也不行）。我也不是不可或缺的。
我觉得他们只是需要“人”。也不一定要是我。只是需要“人”。
有人需要帮忙，我就不能拒绝。就像那天在公司等电梯时，看见一群人开不了我们那里神经质的门，我就莫名其妙地过去帮他们开门。
其实，到现在，我还是觉得自己不完全是当记者的料（很多人都告诉过我）。
我不懂，我不问，我不说，我不想。我只是比较会听，文笔也只是还好。除了客气的夸奖，也没有人对我写过的文章表示赞许。但你可不要因此来夸奖我、敷衍我，因为对我一点帮助也没有。
我觉得我做公关会比较适合，只嫌不够亮丽也不怎么会与人攀谈。但是我做人超公关，超客气，超喜欢宣传、打广告。
现在真的很累。可是，就是停不下来。心里或者是觉得，既然我不是名很出色的记者，至少能当一名很卖命的记者。给不了高素质，就给你多一点时间。
自己嘛，就这样no life吧。

我的假期刚开始。也快结束。也几乎根本不存在。
星期一、二，要和非正式交流计划的同学会面。星期三要把福建专题做完，然后开始进行下一个专题。星期三、四、五，要为下学期第一期的《南苑》做排版。这一周内还得回公司与人事部商量交流的事。
假期的时间，就这样过了。我呢，则没有放过假。除了中间一个星期的迎新营。
怨谁呢？自作孽，不可活。怨无人啊。

这个连20岁都不到的傻妹，越来越悲观，像个老人似的。把一切看得太重，其实却什么也看不清楚。

这则文章似乎也没怎么提到这三个月来发生的事情。只是想宣泄一些老掉牙的牢骚。该做的事，都还没做。

。尋找中@15:32