是我的表达能力出了问题吗?
怎么我说的话一直被误解呢?
或许我说的有点模糊, 但也不至于被完全误解吧?
很糟糕耶我, 是要怎样才能确保大家都 get my point leh?
My communication skills really that bad?
I'm paying attention to my level of context already, but still!
怎么办!

。尋找中@20:55

5 rounds of production over! Nice...

I don't mind staying on if I stay in Singapore... Call me crazy...

I don't like studying... I like journalistic/editorial work...

Perhaps if I don't do all these, I will study more...

It's much more fulfilling and meaningful than my notes leh...

Anyway I was in Chron room from 9 plus in the morning on Thursday and stayed until 5 plus on Friday morning... Poor Fan Di stayed on with me...

I thought all was well and happily started my day on Friday... And then I was told still got problem... So we had to go back and edit a bit more again...

Nothing can be perfect... One can almost always find ways to improve... Then again, one can only find loopholes because there are loopholes... Hence, nothing can be perfect...

Another thing on Friday...

We did feedback for COM208 tutorial and lecture... Benjy randomly asked me to collect the forms and send them up to the GO... I realized I'm quite a nice person because I gave rather nice comments for COM208, after being a real sincere bitch for COM202...

COM208 is actually quite useful... Especially interview and survey skills... I realized my survey skills totally sux... The one I did for my dialect story was totally useless and I didn't use any information from it... Partly it's because I changed my angle i.e. my RQ, so perhaps the survey wasn't that badly done? Haha...

Semester 2 sux... Thank goodness it's coming to an end... And we have to wait for another 3 months before Year 2 Semester 1 commences... Yeah, work! I wonder where I will end up... I'm a lil scared of LHZB... Year 2... Communication History by the Dean himself... Visual Literacy hopefully by the famous tutor... Haha no lah, Visual Literacy is voted Most Popular Module, cannot be that bad rite...

Anyway...

高以翔好帅!

。尋找中@17:50

Haiz. I should have S/Ued my Korean. Listening was great, essay was great, but the oral presentation was total nightmare. Firstly, it's lack of practice. Secondly, it's stage fright. I can be totally fine during practice, but once I stand up there, I cannot remember a single thing nor properly say whatever I remember. It was just plain horrid. There's another listening coming up. I need no less than A to maintain my ideal grade. Korean is properly the only module I can score for this semester. My luck for Accounting quiz probably won't last until finals, but I'll try my best!

Actually it's quite weird that I'm learning Korean. I like the language but I'm not so much passionate about it nor the culture. That places me at a very disadvantageous position in my class. All of them are Korean fans!!! I don't like DongBangShinKi/Super Junior/Wonder Girls (I have no idea who they are!); I never watched 秋天的童话/冬季恋歌/宫-野蛮王妃/我叫金三顺 etc and I haven't watched 꽃 보다 남자. I am anything but a Korean fan! The passion is just not there. But I do like Korean language.

I like writing Korean. But I totally cannot speak Korean.

What will I be passionate learning? 台语! Haha Teochew! Maybe not Canto though. But those two. Haiz.

。尋找中@17:22

我想当...

发型师（自己的头发不好玩，就玩别人的）...
配音员（虽然我平时说话都是死人调，声音总会在不经意时变得超有表情的）...
演唱者（就只是英英美代子，一直唱歌唱歌唱歌）...
编剧（许老师的一句话让我的编剧梦一直发到现在）...

要有别人所没有的。独一无二。

I'm looking forward to writing my ops piece...once I'm done with my news story...

不要再找我麻烦了!!!

Disclaimer: 请不要对号入座，若被得罪，与我无关＊推卸责任＊

我想...

如果我没进入SC，我或许不会感到如此压抑...
如果没有被压抑，我或许不会对华文更有兴趣...
如果仍是痴恋数学，我现在或许更迷失...
比现在更迷失...
但也因为进入SC，我英文变好了！
华文变烂了！
英文没好多少...
华文烂多了...
也不知道以前算不算好...

有些东西，没有就没有
即使找不到，也要继续一直找

勉强是不会有幸福的，但还是要胡说八道一番（stupid 202）
逞强也不会有幸福的，但还是要撑下去（stupid 204）
撞墙当然不会有幸福，因为会很痛（i dunno what to write for 208）

。尋找中@22:02

i shall do a non-emo post!
i bought the e.l.f. bronzer finally!
guess where i bought that?
nanyang audi!
haha bhg was having some kind of bazaar there.
haha that's all for my non-emo post.
i wanna sing~~~

。尋找中@22:59

Sometimes it's a desire to challenge fate to see how worse things can get which keeps people going on. Things look like they are at their worst? Don't make such a quick conclusion. Things might just get worse. If you are not at your worst, why try to end everything? On the other hand, if you are indeed at your worst, that means things will start turning better! Oh well, which point of the curve am I at?

I know I suck, but I'm not letting go. If I let go, I don't know where I'll end up. I don't want to end up as a floater.

Shiyan was asking if I will be 闷 if I go Taiwan for exchange. I will be 闷 if I don't get to go. The hope's almost gone. I shall continue writing Korean essays on Taiwan, dreaming about my trip to Taiwan in the near future, but perhaps in another dimension but this. If I don't go, where will I be? Physically I'll be in NTU. But then, where will I be?

How will things be like...
If I didn't come to NTU SCI?
If I went to NCCU?
If I applied for NCCU?
If I didn't choose Journalism?
If I never went SPH?
If I never took LEP?
If I never went HCI?
If I never went SCGS?
Some good, some bad...
Well, if I go to sleep now, I might be in better mood tomorrow.
Damn COM204. May there be a miracle, just like COM203. Dream on if I may...


What does it feel like to like...
And to hate?
?
?
?

。尋找中@01:27

。尋找中@09:34

I am suddenly interested in Communication Research, even though I truly do not like studying about it. I want to research about linguistic, or more specifically, dialect. But I don't think I have the perseverance to have any action for this interest. Haiz...

。尋找中@15:33

i don't care

I Don't Care

I DON'T CARE

I DON'T CARE

Can I not care?

I don't want to care.

Can I not?

I don't think so.

What the hell.

So what if I care?

I don't know what to do!

。尋找中@10:06

我发现我们真的老了。
你或许还和对老朋友们保持联络，你们或许已经生疏，但你应该还记得他们。
但是你记得你们是怎么认识的吗？
你记得对他说的第一句话吗？
你记得你们第一次聚会做的事吗？
你记得当年曾玩过的游戏、聊过的八卦吗？
我们的印象或许都已经模糊...

。尋找中@07:50

I set up a new blog for ybloggist!
abdefghjklnopqrtvwxyz.blogspot.com
Don't try typing this, you'll probably get it wrong.
Can you tell what's the meaning of the blog url? XP
There's only 6 posts now, and only the "recent" 2 have actual meaning because those are the things I really wanted to blog about.
I hope to get this blog going on though, if I can manage it.
All this blogging about music reminds me: I want midnight KBOX!!!

。尋找中@22:25

我發現我在校園內獨自走動時像足個失智老人的－－
雙眼無神，
面無表情，
四肢無力，
腳步沈重。

我不知道我究竟是變得更
成熟穩重，還是更
“老”氣沈沈。
有時候超沒動力，只想一切平平淡淡、平平安安；
有時卻超想改變世界，死守著一些莫名其妙的堅持。

人老了，不中用了。
想一想，我其實屬於年輕的一代。
怎麼會這麼疲倦？
到時真的老了的時候，我該怎麼辦？

（Bimbo一下會不會有比較青春的感覺？）

我超愛這兩天的髮質的！
多虧 Loreal Elseve 的 hair mask!

（Ok, bimbo 夠了。）

世界上最難說的話其實是最基本的“Hello”
＊random＊

＊莫名其妙的累＊

。尋找中@17:40

OMG
I swear "Do you know when YOG 2010 will be held?" is not meant to be a give-away!
I should have specified that I want DD/MM/YYYY.
The answer is not 2010!!! (Although technically it's not wrong lah...)
Fine, I'm a bad survey administrator.
Judging from how I can screw up such a simple survey, I'll probably fail my COM208.

。尋找中@10:55

我现在的心情只有一个字可以形容: 不爽.
我超想打人的, 可是又不知道我想打谁.
我想我应该到辅导中心走一趟.
开玩笑的.
就只是心情超不爽.
事情超多, 时间超少, 人们也似乎从人间蒸发了.
被刺, 被撞, 被放飞机...
我告诉你, 我不常露黑脸, 可是我的黑名单长得很.
对, 我很爱记仇.
不爽就是不爽.
弄得我什么事也不想做.
第三人称母亲所拥有.

。尋找中@20:17

Please help me do these two surveys!
No personal details required!
NTU students only.

Click Here to take "YOG 2010" survey

Click Here to take "Dialect - Learn it or Lost it" survey

。尋找中@15:51

我的能力一再被老师否定.
我有那么差吗?
我觉得没有勒.
我选择相信我已经beyond the grades了.
这样我会高兴一点.
没有一个assignment有好下场的 .
TMD.
不管了落.
做好份内的事(其中包括学业-.-)就好了.
不爽~
一定要证明自己!
Like how???

。尋找中@20:18

I shouldn't be blogging now.
I've got COM208 quiz and MB101 presentation on Friday!
I just want to say, I lost $100 last week and I have absolutely no idea where and how I lost it!
$100 不是小数目 ok!
If anyone saw me drop two $50 notes, or saw them anywhere near me last week, please let me know!
Boo-hoo-hoo, my hard-earned money... =(

I shall set up my new blog after I get COM208 and MB101 out of the way!!!
My dialect article is still in progress...
But it was well delayed cuz MM Secretary said something on the issue which really 犯众怒, giving me more inspiration!
I just cannot get myself to get down to it proper, even though I'm about half done with my initial round of information gathering, excluding the extension part.

Aiyeryer... I don't like to study... And omg one hour just passed like that... Scary...

。尋找中@16:47

Aiyo... What's going on in NTU? Two cases in the first week after recess... Rest in peace, people...

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On the brighter side, personally, Lady Luck finally noticed that I need some help and gave me some assistance for my Accounting test! Despite studying 3 lectures, skimming through another 3 and totally ignoring the last, I actually got 18/20 for my quiz! Ok lah, it's MCQ. Tikam-tikam tio...

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I must do my dialect story well!!! I see more information coming in, thanks to MM Lee. So what if we are learning English and Chinese well, because we don't get to learn dialect? So what if we don't need dialect to break into the Chinese market? Does it mean if China never rose up and the Ang-Mohs are still leading the world, we will be asked to forsake Chinese and focus on brushing up on our English? It's a similar logic for dialect. It's more than its practical use, but the connection to our roots and all. Can we stop being so pragmatic?

。尋找中@12:44

I shall talk about my freaky encounter after Vol15I9 Production Night 1. Honestly, I am quite disturbed by the EEE incident. Perhaps cuz I've been following the story quite closely (I've been reading almost every single news report on the incident from Monday to Wednesday, until production kept me busy) and have participated in writing 4 related stories. It just stays in my mind. I was unwilling to walk anywhere near that area at B6 on my way back to hall after the first round of production so I took a detour via B4 instead. All was nice and peaceful (cuz I was keeping myself occupied on my iPod and Lumines Block) until I took the lift to Nanyang Auditorium. I remembered pressing "1" and I looked down to check my phone. When I looked up again, I saw "B2" and "B1" lighted up too. Well... At B2, the lift stopped and there was no one. Same thing at B1. Gosh. I was so glad to reach Level 1. I wasn't all that freaked out until I got back to hall and told many people about it. I got more and more freaked out and went to sleep with all the talismans I could find. I swear I'm going to go Si Ma Lu to pray during the weekend.

Anyway, I've got things to say about journalism.

Participation in Chron editorial work has made me aware how irresponsible I had been as an intern a year ago. I have learnt from another perspective that writers tend to be over reliant on the editors to clean up all their mess. The problem is, the writer writes one story, the editor edits a million. You create one hell, the editor deals with many more. Many of us don't bother to edit our own article before submitting it to the editor cuz no matter what, the editor is going to give it a makeover. However, all of us can help reduce the need for a makeover and keep our articles in a state as close to your own creation as possible. Make it as perfect as possible, and make the life of the editor easier. I believe time will make things better as we all learn (seniors write so well I think I'll make things worse if I edit anything). Perhaps everyone should try editorial work and will learn a fantastic lesson (which I have). I shall be a responsible writer when I return for internship this coming break.

I shall go study for my Accounting quiz... (I don't know if I should start going offstone!!!)

。尋找中@03:26

I wanna blog about...
• Yoga concert
• Impresario 2009 Grand Finals

I shall do this after...I dunno when. =(

。尋找中@10:15