what the hell is wrong with my facebook?!
at times like this, the least you can do is offer me a channel to express myself.

a warning to all, please do not be offended if i am hostile to you. this hostility and emo-ness will persist until i settle my fee-paying exchange application, maybe even until it's confirmed that i get a placement in nccu. or not.

the more i work on my application, the more hopeless i feel. i wonder if i should just give up and stay in singapore; save my gpa, continue with pulse, do uw freelance.

i don't want to. i want to go taiwan. not just taiwan, nccu.

there is no one to blame. i didn't do well. that's it. gone case. why is that when i did well, good grades didn't help, and when i didn't do well, grades are all that matters. i just feel so exasperated cuz i really did too badly.

my time management sux. i cannot keep up with readings. i rely on wiki as additional readings. i sux when it comes to assignment. i have no creativity, no skills, no whatsoever. brainwash me and get me back on the right track. make me believe that grades are really all that matters.

dawn steele asked me to attend the "what's next" instep info session even though i told her taht i am not accepting my instep offer to nctu (my moment-of-folly alternative to nccu) and that i'm going to apply for fee-paying.

why the hell did i go for that damn talk? she spoke as though everyone in the lt has got their choice, and it's probably true. it's just rubbing salt on my wound.

i thought i could get some questions answered after the session, but apparently dawn steele is not in charge of fee-paying exchange and has no intention to help. i'm totally spamming nikki draper and angeline sim for help with certificate of nomination, and nikki draper has been really really helpful so far. but i'm still clueless about certificate of enrollment.

this is irritating. everyone is irritating. i am irritating. don't irritate me, and don't get irritated by me.

。尋找中@19:28