Am I 自閉? Am I anti-social? Am I having problems communicating? Am I merely unfriendly?
I cannot seem to fit into any groups I've worked with. I can talk to them of cuz, but I just don't feel comfortable hanging out with them. From 黃城 in JC, to Chronicle, FOC, UOC.
黃城 is quite ok, considering the amount of time we spend together, but I rarely hang out with the rest if the few I'm closer with are not around.
For Chronicle, we spend quite a lot of time together as well. They are an interesting bunch of people, but I'm just not close to most of them.
As for FOC, I'm definitely not close to the subcomm I was in. Thank goodness I joined Scotto during the camp. I got along well with them then, but after that when we went back to school, I just drifted apart from them. I don't join them for outings, usually not intentionally. It got a little awkward seeing juniors in school, not knowing whether or not to say hi. But there were a few friendly ones who do talk to me randomly.
UOC is the most recent. I basically don't know anyone other than Cecilia and Darwis, and Yawen whom I got to know cuz of this. When others talk to me, I answer of cuz, but I cannot hold a conversation. After caroling, I will leave almost immediately after a quick goodbye and not join them for dinner or even a few more words. It just feels awkward.
Gahhh!!! This is irritating! Is this normal?
I don't think I made many friends in university. People I can talk to, yes. People I can hang out with in school or go out with out of school, no. Anti-social to the max. Save me. Or rather, talk to me.
